The Misadventures of an Enthusiast of Love |
I'm on a mission to experience love, not just romantic love as most people would expect, but to find love of myself, love of others, love of the divine, and last of all, love of a man. I figure I'll begin with love of myself because as the old saying goes, "You can't love someone else until you love yourself." Here I go again on my own... |
I finally picked up The Path to Love again the other day when my ex called after 8 years of estrangement spouting off about some nonsense that he wanted to be in a committed relationship with me, which is something I wondered if I had always wanted but tucked away. I immediately realized I did not. No matter how wrong it is, I kind of wanted to laugh.
Although, in the midst of the conversation, he commented on how I’ve “got (my) shit together,” which I don’t feel is the case, but it’s more so than him so I get where he was coming from. Anyway, I started reading, and after one page, I was liberated. The book started with the whole, “it’s not what you do..” arguement, but it was worded so amazingly that I finally got it. I don’t have to do anything. I don’t have to find a job that sums my being up into a nice little package. Just because I want to help people doesn’t mean I have to find a job where I save the world. It doesn’t mean I MUST go back to school. What it means is that I can continue to do exactly what I choose, but be true to myself, and that’s good enough.
